i have decided to include this message that i have sent to a professional mistress. i think it gives some background around ,yself and my marrige. I would like to in the future post some letters that i have given julie but that will have to wait until i have her permission!!
The following may be deemed quite kinky to some people and if humiliation or BDSM holds no interest for you, i suggest you dont read any further!!

Hello Mistress Tania,

I really liked the feel of your site and especially the very detailed description you give of yourself. You are quite right when you point out that an awful lot of sites seem to be a full blown bdsm do as your told or else affair. I really like your approach of truly understanding your clients’ needs and tailoring things to accommodate these whilst pushing gently at boundaries!

At this stage I am not looking to immediately join or enroll for anything but have a more longer term enquiry.

I am married with children and have an incredibly sexy and insatiable wife! My friends are often jealous because we have been together for 11years and in the beginning we fucked on a daily basis – this has not changed in 11 years!! Over the years our (well mainly my) fantasys have led to all sorts of adventures including a vast array of toys and occasional swinging situations.

A little about me:

I consider my self to be highly intelligent and have constantly gone through self analysis all my life trying to work out why some kinky stuff appealls to me and early this year I took time out from my normal life to better understand my self. I have now come to terms with the fact that I am woman born in the wrong body. I don’t bother with labels such as tranny, sissy, cd, etc etc as when I research this online, I find that no one label quite seems to sum up how I feel! I have also realized that I have always been this way but it is only now that I have dared to fully admit it to myself as well as Julie (my wife). Whilst learning about my self this year I spent sometime dressed as a female (at home only) the clothes felt good but didn’t quite hit the spot. I have no desire to “out” myself as tg and Julie finds that thought horrifying as well! In her words, she needs to “see” her man. I am fully surportive of julies feelings and have no intention of pursuing any more dressing activities. However the biggest enjoyment i/we got from the exercise was when I went through a period of “tucking” my cock away. I got this down to a fine art with proper testicle retraction and a very firm tuck – originally this was simply to look better in skirts etc. but the real benefit was the feelings this state gave me. by denying myself access to my cock I found that I was becoming more attentive to my wifes needs and I felt that I was turning into a better person with more drive and focus because I was spending less and less time thinking about my cock! Our sex life did not suffer in the slightest during this, in fact if anything it greatly improved – I put this down to cutting out my masturbation which even with regular sex with julie I still had a tug around 4 or 5 times a day!

We talked for a long time about how I can maintain these feelings and become a better person without all the girly stuff and tucking. And we have found are solution. I am now in a cb3000 chastity device that julie holds the key to. This works on many levels for us, julie had no idea that I masturbated so much and is glad she is now in control of my erections and orgasms! And I love seeing the effect of having this control on julie, she is already becoming a more confident person in herself – something that you can only achieve when you do have this level of control. For me I just love it!! I have spent all my time with julie constantly seeking to satisfy her sexually and putting her needs before mine – this simply takes it to a much higher level. I have now started really opening up to julie about some of my deepest fantasys and she is loving it – nothing seems to disturb her! I have told her that over the years I have lost count of the times that I have been making love to her yet fantasizing about her humiliating me! I have no idea why humiliation turns me on but I have a feeling it stems from having a small cock! When erect I am only 5.5 inches! I don’t believe I have a hang up about this as I use it to my advantage to encourage me to keep finding new ways to stimulate her further – I have a pa piercing with many exotic attachments( im a bit like a vibrator!) and we also have a large collection of different types of cock rings for her – none of the cheap plastic leather stuff – metal only! Julie has always reassured me that as far as she is concerned the size of my cock is just fine! But I encourage her to call me “small boy” as this always excites me! also the bottom line is that whatever way we look at it my cock is below the average size therefore it can be classed as small!

I mentioned earlier that we swing from time to time, when we do this it only ever involves another man. Julie does not want to see me with another woman and I have absolutely no desire to go with another woman. Julie never could understand why I could see her with another man but was glad that it turned me on as she does need a fresh/bigger cock from time to time! She is gorgeous and if this desire arises we wait till about midnight, then hit a local bar and we are always back with a fresh man

Within the hour! We are very lucky that our finances mean that we can afford to keep an ex council flat that I bought as an investnment a couple of years ago for our playtimes! Julie now realizes that my excitement at seeing her with another man comes from the pleasure I get from humiliation. There is nothing more pleasurable for me to see my wife getting a bigger cock than I can give her – it is total humiliation! I love it!

Anyway starting to cut to the chase, although julie is turned on by all of this she finds the act of humiliating me quite difficult – I guess it goes against all the love she has for me? but it still turns her on! I described one of my ultimate fantasys to her which involved her taking another man whislt having me watch whilst locked away in my chastity device and possibly other forms of restraint, all the while pointing out to me how large his cock is, how much bigger and better than mine it is, how much shes enjoying it etc etc. I have told her that in that situation I would always be obedient and fully understand that anything she says will not be taken personally and all remarks and the whole experience remains in what we call our”twilight zone” we have never had a single moment of regret or any problems within our relationship as we leave any scanrio sex sessions we go for firmly where they belong – locked away and to be drawn upon to fuel our horniness!

The idea that I have to help julie understand better and feel more confident to humiliate me without risking hurting me would be to visit you as a couple! My fantasy that I would like to make come true some time next year is to visit you with my wife and have you provide the humiliation whilst julie is serviced by a very nicely hung man!!!

Is this something that appeals to you? If it is would you be able to provide a man? Or could we bring our own??

I obviously realize that there will be costs involved and from your website I fully understand that you would want to get to know me a lot better first, so if my request is something you would like to provide I envisage “signing” up a month or 2 before the agreed meet in order for you to get to know me as much as you want – you say you like intelligent and imaginative people – I believe I will exceed all your expectations.

Thank you for taking the time to read my ramble!

Small boy xx