13/12 – 23/12

Where has it all gone wrong?

The next night (Tuesday) was more of the same leaving me further frustrated!

The next night was absolutely amazing and made the previous days frustrations totally worth it. Julie teased me again that night and eventually unlocked me and rode my cock to an amazing orgasm – when I came it was very powerful and I swear I saw flashing lights!! Julie told me that’s how it always is for her and that I should get used to it as that is how I will be cumming from now on – yippee! Or so I thought?

After we had cuddled she locked me back in my device to let the timelock software run its course.

Thursday night came and I had worked out that she had scheduled my release for tonight – excellent, what has she got in mind for me???

Diddly fucking squat. That’s what. She was looking at her watch and told me that she thought that she had set it to let me out by now – it was 9pm. – but it didn’t, so when I asked her what time she had set – she told me that she couldn’t remember!! She wasn’t just trying to tease me which would have been just fine – she geninley forgot!!

This upset me, I told her that I felt a bit let down that I had given her my cock yet she couldn’t even remember when she had planned my release for – I felt quite rejected to say the least! Eventually the software decrypted and let me out at about 11.10pm. not too bad I thought. Julie had drunk a bottle of wine by now so we went to bed with me thinking that we would have some fun – got to bed and julie told me she wanted to watch TV for an hour, I suggested something more interesting and she suddenly decided that she wanted to go to sleep!! In all our years together she has never turned me down due to being tired!! All this left me feeling incredibilly disappointed. I ended up going for a lonely wank downstairs that to be honest just left me feeling even worse.

With my state of mind I didn’t want to make julie feel under pressure and I done my best to explain my disappointment at her seemingly lack of interest in all this and then I gave her the device back. I told her that I could see she was struggling a bit with the concept and that she can feel free to lock me up whenever she wants to – when she is ready.

That was a week ago. The CB3K is now sat in the safe gathering dust just like all our other toys!

I am now at my witts end. All the closeness I had developed and the feeling that Julie was finally tuning into me and becoming my soulmate have evaporated. Its getting me down and making me sad and its 2 days to fucking Christmas! Throughout our relationship we have had an amazing sex life making love on average 4 or 5 times a week sometimes more! But in all this time, I have always been the one that has to initiate things. Julie has never once reached for my cock and told me she wants me – it is ALWAYS the other way round. So what did I expect from this new adventure?

For me it is a double edged sword. Firstly, I really want to experience the frustration of not being able to satisfy myself selfishly as I firmly believe that I will become more focused in all aspects of life, like doing more for julie round the house and performing better at work – a cock is a huge distraction!! Secondly when it comes to sex I was hoping that she might think about me and my needs a little more and make the first move from time to time.

But right now I simply feel that we talked and talked about all of this and Julie seemed genuinely excited and turned on by having control of my cock but after I went through quite an emotional time leading up to giving her my cock, she enjoyed it for a week or so but has now lost all interest and im fucked off.

Before the device turned up I had to go away on business and I had printed off a sexy story relating another couples adventure into chastity, she read it and sent me a text saying how horny she was and that she was proper up for it and that I had better make the most of my little remaining time with unrestricted access to my cock – I did, I had about 10 wanks that night – I just couldn’t leave it alone!!

Now I am back to square one. If I want sex I am going to have to initiate things and turn her on. If I want to experience chastity, I will have to lock my self up and play games on my own and that’s not a lot of fun and defeats the whole purpose of me giving her the ultimate gift any man can offer his partner.

So to sum up my experience so far:

We talked a lot and both decided that this is the path for us
I trained myself to be able to wear the device through the night.
I gave my wife my cock.
Julie enjoyed this for about a week.
She forgot what time she had set for my release –twice
She shows no interest whatsoever when it is time for my so called planned release
She wont talk to me anymore about all of this other than to say she is still interested in it all but is finding it difficult – no elaboration.
The device is now sat in the safe with no hint of it coming back into play.

My wife is selfish, or is it just me? I gave her my cock, she had a play with it and has got bored and given it back!!

Where do we go from here????? My head is now proper wrecked. And I feel lonely. I have now reached the point that if she does get it out and want to lock me up that I think I might end up telling her she is not worthy and she can stick the device where the sun don’t shine!! Whilst feeling that I would be totally justified in this stance I just don’t know where to go from here. I don’t want to spend another ten years making all the moves, making all the effort, making sure she is totally satisfied, letting her take additional lovers from time to time – all this without so much as a hand job from her. Our love life is to one sided and I don’t know what to do anymore.